Just for starters
It just hurts to see a blog empty, unupdated and hollow with words of emotions and feelings of the heart...and that is why i am here, being the 1st and i most definitely hope not the only post that will be available until the end of July. Let's just go straight to the point at this moment, i am here today because undeniably i am intrigued by the title of the blog which was decided yesterday...somehow i am aroused to an extent where i even day-dream of what should be written in this post, who should i talk about in this post and etc...i am indeed excited due to one word in the title, the word Q-U-E-E-R...yes i am fascinated with that word and am proud to a certain extent to admit it.
Well, the title of the blog evidently offers enough info to anyone who comes across it to get an idea that this blog caters to the gay and ungay people of the society. Ironically, i see the community splited into 2 main categories this day...mind me if i forget about the homeless, poverty stricken community...but i am not here to discuss about that issue, no matter how inhuman that may sound. Back to the 2 categories, well, it is basically made up of a group of queers and a group of unqueers. That is the bigger picture of the community and in this 2 categories, we have the other sub-categories as well, such as the homeless, the rich, the working class people and ladida. I did forget about the semi-queer, but a friend once said that semi-queers are people on the verge to turning fully queer...honestly i dont really agree but they are somewhere in between i suppose.
As we all can see, is very obvious that the queer community is getting larger day by day and its influence is becoming more and more evident. Unqueer males are taking on the lifestyle of the queer males and be known as the ever fashionable metro-sexuals that are often mistaken as gays..what a pity..honestly i am also a person being sucked into this vortex of magnetic gay radiation as i have become someone who embraces the queer as well....no! im not stepping out of the closet or box or wtv...ok maybe i pharse it wrongly, but i have become a person who find a great deal of interest in gay men..or men who acts gay or anything in that particular category. I sure hope in the future, they will be other people like myself as it is painful to share this with other people who are not really in sync with this matter of mine
I know this may sound terribly weird but the sight of a dandy looking male with well groomed hair, stylish clothes,a heavenly facial structure reminiscent to a females and a delicate attitude to match just pumps extra blood to my brain, turning my senses to an alert mode and begin to stare with excitement at the specimen many here in Malaysia still could not quite accept. I just cannot help but wish to be in the presence of the particlar queer....it depends also how much of the feminine side he embraces..as the saying goes, too many cooks can spoil a pot of soup.Well, you get the idea right? A particular famous queer does the same thing whenever he use to appear every Thursday on travel and adventure at 10....
Yes! yes! it is indeed the undoubtly queer Austin Scarlett...i am used to seeing the eye-rolling effects, weird stares, and open mouth expressions of people when i tell them witout feeling shy that i seriously thing Austin is hensem...ahahaha..ya seriously. I never missed an episode of Project Runway and will catch the repeats again if i got a chance just to see Austin. In that particular one hour programme, i am in lalaland and in the midst of going absolutely going insane. His swag, his walk, his talk, his clothes and his designs just fascinates me. Well, i do watch the programme due to its content as well on fashion design, but Austin is the main focus of course. There was one episode where he applied blue eyeshadow on his deep set of blue eyes and i remembered my family members mock and screamed in horror when they got the 1st sight of him...staying cool, quiet and in still in lalaland, i gaspe in awe looking at every detail of his face...goodness, it was something to me, that is if anyone could understand my state of mind regarding this.
Ok..that is the queer man of project runway and someone i will not ever meet in my life as it is simply a fairytale of an hours' programme. If i were to put it into the context or reality, everyday life, there isn't a single queer that is available for me to look, stare or gaze at because there is simply none that will ever look the way of a women...never, never never..and the reason is pretty simple as well, we are talking about queer men here....i repeat queer. Now, back to what i have said without shame earlier, i am a fan of the queer men...how devastating is that.
Honestly, it is devastating and difficult at times as you know never will there be a chance of anything happening between you and the particular queer you fancy. That leads to regret, self-hate, emotional breakdowns and the worse of its kind..the act of denial...and i have become a victim of all of the above. Such a 360 turn from Austin land to reality huh? Guess that is life.
A fix is definitely in need as this is rather unhealthy i must admit i need a cure. End of story
which is more wrong? to love a queer or to hate one
Well, the title of the blog evidently offers enough info to anyone who comes across it to get an idea that this blog caters to the gay and ungay people of the society. Ironically, i see the community splited into 2 main categories this day...mind me if i forget about the homeless, poverty stricken community...but i am not here to discuss about that issue, no matter how inhuman that may sound. Back to the 2 categories, well, it is basically made up of a group of queers and a group of unqueers. That is the bigger picture of the community and in this 2 categories, we have the other sub-categories as well, such as the homeless, the rich, the working class people and ladida. I did forget about the semi-queer, but a friend once said that semi-queers are people on the verge to turning fully queer...honestly i dont really agree but they are somewhere in between i suppose.
As we all can see, is very obvious that the queer community is getting larger day by day and its influence is becoming more and more evident. Unqueer males are taking on the lifestyle of the queer males and be known as the ever fashionable metro-sexuals that are often mistaken as gays..what a pity..honestly i am also a person being sucked into this vortex of magnetic gay radiation as i have become someone who embraces the queer as well....no! im not stepping out of the closet or box or wtv...ok maybe i pharse it wrongly, but i have become a person who find a great deal of interest in gay men..or men who acts gay or anything in that particular category. I sure hope in the future, they will be other people like myself as it is painful to share this with other people who are not really in sync with this matter of mine
I know this may sound terribly weird but the sight of a dandy looking male with well groomed hair, stylish clothes,a heavenly facial structure reminiscent to a females and a delicate attitude to match just pumps extra blood to my brain, turning my senses to an alert mode and begin to stare with excitement at the specimen many here in Malaysia still could not quite accept. I just cannot help but wish to be in the presence of the particlar queer....it depends also how much of the feminine side he embraces..as the saying goes, too many cooks can spoil a pot of soup.Well, you get the idea right? A particular famous queer does the same thing whenever he use to appear every Thursday on travel and adventure at 10....
Yes! yes! it is indeed the undoubtly queer Austin Scarlett...i am used to seeing the eye-rolling effects, weird stares, and open mouth expressions of people when i tell them witout feeling shy that i seriously thing Austin is hensem...ahahaha..ya seriously. I never missed an episode of Project Runway and will catch the repeats again if i got a chance just to see Austin. In that particular one hour programme, i am in lalaland and in the midst of going absolutely going insane. His swag, his walk, his talk, his clothes and his designs just fascinates me. Well, i do watch the programme due to its content as well on fashion design, but Austin is the main focus of course. There was one episode where he applied blue eyeshadow on his deep set of blue eyes and i remembered my family members mock and screamed in horror when they got the 1st sight of him...staying cool, quiet and in still in lalaland, i gaspe in awe looking at every detail of his face...goodness, it was something to me, that is if anyone could understand my state of mind regarding this.
Ok..that is the queer man of project runway and someone i will not ever meet in my life as it is simply a fairytale of an hours' programme. If i were to put it into the context or reality, everyday life, there isn't a single queer that is available for me to look, stare or gaze at because there is simply none that will ever look the way of a women...never, never never..and the reason is pretty simple as well, we are talking about queer men here....i repeat queer. Now, back to what i have said without shame earlier, i am a fan of the queer men...how devastating is that.
Honestly, it is devastating and difficult at times as you know never will there be a chance of anything happening between you and the particular queer you fancy. That leads to regret, self-hate, emotional breakdowns and the worse of its kind..the act of denial...and i have become a victim of all of the above. Such a 360 turn from Austin land to reality huh? Guess that is life.
A fix is definitely in need as this is rather unhealthy i must admit i need a cure. End of story
which is more wrong? to love a queer or to hate one
posted by StephieLiaw at
9:26 PM
2 Comments:
what a LOOOOONG starter post ^_^
Hi Step!!
How very emotional and to the point... The relation between your post and the title of course. Seeing how you are the one who chose it and all hua hua hua. Perhaps you wanted to use this blog as some sort of therapeutic way of expressing your love for the queer?
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